iemdan's Xanga

Nelson Mandela's inaugural speech (1994)

Thu, 18 May 2006 01:54:24 GMT

"Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate.
Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure.
It is our light, not our darkness that frightens us.
We ask ourselves, who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous,
talented and fabulous?
Actually, who are you not to be?...
Your playing small doesn't serve the world.
There's nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other
people won't feel insecure around you.
We were born to manifest the glory of God within us.
It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone.
And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give
other people permission to do the same.
As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence
automatically liberates others."

- thought i'd share this speech with you all. i thought it's a powerful one.

penny....life...significance...

Wed, 22 Mar 2006 05:46:10 GMT

so today i was told with a little story, well more like a metaphor, of a penny. it's quite simple, and im not surprised if you've heard about it or something similar before. it starts with a penny. yes. for those of you who don't know what penny means, it means 1 cent = 1/5 nicle = 1/10 dime = 1/25 quarter = 1/100 dollar. yes , fairly small amount of money if you may say. it is almost worth of nothing. people who have a lot of pennies tents to not care if they ever loose any of them. however, if you collect a whole bunch of them, then you will get some serious amount of money. and it will be significant. there's a funny thing about that if you go around toronto collecting all the pennies that ppl threw away, you can make youself a millionair right away. crazy eh?
so i was just thinking...maybe thats what we should think in terms of our lives. do you often think that you want to do so much to influence so many people, yet feeling powerless? do you feel that your idea is way too large that it's just impossible to carry on within your limited amount of life time? i cerntainly do. and honestly it completely disapointed and of cousre discourage me. so then i just shrugged off the idea and just accepted the things as they are. isn that sad? is that supposed to be how it is?
i realized that no its not. perhaps, we're all like pennies. perhaps i don't need to worry about all those pennies out there. perhaps i'll just live with my own penny, my own idea. and il spend my life carrying this idea onto just one person...only one...so when i die, that person would have 2 pennies. with him/her. and if he/she does the same thing, next person would have 3. so in years. it won't be just one penny. but a whole lot of them all together. and when it happens, that's when soemthign significant will occur. a change, a movement, a revolution. perhaps, when that happens, then it's no longer an idea, but a belief. i won't be just a dream, but a dream come true. a surprising reality.
is this a good news? yes and no. but i personally believe that, because of it, i have courage to carrying on my own idea, my penny, live it and die and pass it on as much as i can.

yet another entry

Tue, 14 Mar 2006 04:38:40 GMT

various ppl had came up to me to ask me why i 've posted my xanga up but havn even blog it yet. good question...then id ask ppl, do u literally write ppl email abot ur everyday(every half day even) story? if u dun..maybe then i dun blog everyday cuz not everyday's worth written on this online thingy.
suggestion...call me or talk to me on msn....maybe ul just get da first hand info...hows that?

things been happening around. way too much that im discouraged to use written words to discribe them. if ur curious u may ask me then i mite tell u some.

i hav so many quesitons and doubts its not even a joke. funny thing is...ppl can nervous trying to defend themselves when im not really even asking them abot what theyr thinkin....wha a joke....why r ppl so defensive? and we call ourselves christians?...cant even b a normal human being...its a shame.

shame as it is..ur prob alreayd getin nervous or even offended by readin this eh...again ...if it causes ur curiousity..by all mean, msg me or write me or even better, call me.

please do

Thursday, January 19, 2006

Thu, 19 Jan 2006 10:38:26 GMT

just a side note:
stephen e. quinlan building IS Seneca @ York building

feel free to drop by:)

Monday, January 09, 2006

Mon, 09 Jan 2006 16:53:07 GMT

damn its been a loooonnnnngggg time since i last blogged. yeup..life's been different. thins happened. but here's the most recent events with me. i think mosta ya alreayd knew abot them but this is just in case if u hav ea short term memroy like me.

1. im no longer with ryerson continue education anymore. instead, i got accepted to seneca college (york campus)'s digital media arts, whichs the practical side of new media. so its sitl waht i study. today's the first day of class and so far so good.

2. i spent my holidays in california with my aunts and da family. it rained, i hated it, but da trip was good time. grand canyon was the highlight of the whole trip. let me know if u want to see some pix wev taken. mind u tho, i looked absolutely horrible. why? GOd knos.

3. im now financially in danger cuz of this minor car accident i got before christmas , which costed me $1500 on repairing ( DAMN!). and since my class schedule conflicted with my only lifeguard shift, im no in need of a new job. until then. im short of cash, meaning i wont b able to go out and get drinks as much as i did before:S

k well thaz abot it for now. now tha i hav some freetimes during da day at school, il b able to blog a few here and there. if all fails, u'all stil hav my msn so do make sure to fire up. if u wanna catch me to chil, u kno where to find me.

for those who go to york university, my building's the stephen e. quinlan building by the head of pond rd. so ur around sometimes. let me know and we'l meet up.

k...abot it now. i shall catch ya'all soon with new topics

Monday, June 27, 2005

Mon, 27 Jun 2005 15:02:42 GMT

continue with my last blog after recieving some feedbacks:

what questioned me most would b this, let's say hypothetically we put bush and other decision makers from the american congress in front of those corpses, and the person/group of people who's responsible with the 9/11 (i can't point specifically anyone bcuz iv heard so many opinions that contradicts with each other) in front the those burned ashes of the remains of the dead people, just to look at them...so its no longer just the image, but a reality. what would those people think/say? not just in front of the camera...but behind the camera.

my guess is we probably would never know, because the code of the now-a-days media is that, if we don't need to know, we won't know, unless u were there.

ps. btw ben, i did watched the chomsky lectures, maybe not specifically that one but the other one that talks about using fear factors in order to control...i think it was at university of pensylvania or something..don't quote on me

Sunday, June 26, 2005

Sun, 26 Jun 2005 23:35:06 GMT

something really short to share...i was going through alotta images online for my vdo project for the church lately, i came up to this website...my mind was blown...i saw some of the most griefing images my entire life....words can't explain exactly what they are, but they're basically the war images of a afghan war photos....ahh...just go to this site and see them all urself...

http://www.awitness.org/news/december_2001/aghan_thumbs.html

this website is not quite a peace-making site, rather a religious one. however, the images that it allowed me to see...i dunno....

one thing i do know, those who waged wars and felt happy about the outcome, they must be blind...

outtie

Thursday, June 23, 2005

Thu, 23 Jun 2005 15:48:41 GMT

this is the second day that the weather's been perfect. i have to say im enjoying every single moment of it. who knows how much longer this is gonna last.

my last day to work as a cashier for now, maybe il b bak at this same pool doig the same thing in septmeber...u never know.

whats my revelation on this job? first it was boring, boring to death, boring til my head pop. but now that i have internet access ( finally!!), and the weather actually got nicer, its been better. ur seeing all the same poeple coming the same time doing the same thing (some of them even have been here since the 60's! talk about ancient). it makes u think about what's life all about after all. why are there people like them coming here everyday like part of their life routine, yet a lot more other people who basically have no routine, everyday's a new challenge/threat to their lives, they dont know if they'r gonna survive thru just in another 12 hrs. then theres the third typea person, chose not to let life just go on like tha, they put themslves into challenges all the time willingly. adventurist, they just go to unknown spots trying to find unknown things all as far as they can go. "routine" does not exist in their dictionary.

3 types of life that poped in my head, where would i choose? will i b satisfy with whatever da choice i make??

maybe there's much more to that than just these 3...im still young, im still trying to discover.

batman begins looks good, anyone wanna go see it wit me sometimes????

outie

Wednesday, June 22, 2005

Wed, 22 Jun 2005 12:13:40 GMT

this is unlike me...completely unlike me at all, 10 hrs ago i was sittin here just plent complainning about how im not happy wit who i am now, and right now im ok with it.........wha da heck is wrong with me????

Tuesday, June 21, 2005

Tue, 21 Jun 2005 02:55:50 GMT

how easily it is to just get facinated by someone? sometimes i wondered: what if all these r just a momentary thing? what if i reallyt meant to be left out?
no idea what im talking about??? :D:D:D:D:D yeah i do this lalot:) comfused the heck outta ppl thaz for sure:)

well, theres been quite a few reflections on many things. iif ur stil wondering, yes im stil in a very slow recovering from the low poitn o fmy life, but...as usual, people came up and people helped and listend and understood ( at least i think they did). for that im totally grateful. i guess im in a awkward position now. everyday passes by and as much as iv always tried to find something to do ( or someones to do somethings), the replies weren as satisfying as i expected. there were a few, yet rare. hmmm....oh wel

life goes by weird, it was a beautiful day today, but i wasn motivated to do anything to enjoy the weather atl all....this is very unlike me...i always kill to go out and enjoy da good weather....weird things happening to me these days:S

comment on it if u can, ....well..if u even understand what im talking about.
ok...if any of u r intersted to go out with me someimtes, add me up on ur msn: homme77@hotmail.com and let me know.......if i dunno u...well...help me know u then, and dun b offended if i decide not to know u ( im a jerk)

outtie